I write again

So here I am once again... Torn into pieces.. Thought I had found that someone.. I was happy that everything was working out quite well and according to plan.. I was willing to change and make a difference in the way I look at things.. For you.. Just for you.. But you let me down again and make me feel like a bitch.. A fucking bitch.. A loser.. In front of everyone.. Like there was no respect for me at all.. What the fuck is that supposed to be.. I thought you were everything for me.. But what the fuck??? I just don't get it.. I just fucking don't get it..